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[04 Jan 2006|12:03pm] "The fragrance always stays in the hand that gives the rose."        -Abbi Perrin Truer words were never spoken. She was wise beyond her years. I just got back from her funeral, this whole thing has hit really close to home. Alexis got up and started talking about Abbi, and said "I don't know what I'm going to do without my big sister to help me through problems, to guide me through life, or to offer me advice." I lost it there, Alexis and I are pretty close, because she's best friends with my sister. I couldn't even imagine what she's feeling, to lose a sister.... I started to feel guilty, for being there when I didn't really know Abbi. But then I started to feel more guilty about not knowing her at all. All these people said all these wonderful things about her, how caring she was, and it made me feel aweful. Think about it, I saw her every day in school for the past 5 years, and I never took the time to talk to her, other than a few times in Mrs. Ljungberg's class. It makes me feel so guilty that I didn't get know someone so wonderful, and now I never will. It makes me feel sad because so many people lost someone so special to them. It's always sad when something like this happens, no one deserves to die. But someone so young, someone who has touched so many lives..... At the end of the service, her mother, Becky, got up and said something I will never forget: "When my mother got sick, she decided to make quilts for each one of her 13 grandchildren, a quilt for them to wrap their children up in. This was Abbigale's quilt. She never got to use it, she never got to wrap her first born up in this quilt. So I give it to her, to wrap herself in..." R.I.P. Abbigale Perrin You will be missed.... 03 || Knock me off of my feet

wtf.. [29 Oct 2005|12:00am] Congrats Mom... Two years in a row....thats something to be proud of... You rock... I want to die mostly....so I'm going to take a long bath and going to bed. I can't wait till my parents leave this weekend.... 02 || Knock me off of my feet

[27 Oct 2005|09:26pm] I would like to thank everyone who made this birthday possible... A special thanks to: Jon Jacqui Grandad Qki Ryan Mr. Fox and Mom and Dad I love you all, this day wouldn't have been so amazing without you! 05 || Knock me off of my feet

Music does it better [24 Oct 2005|11:33pm] I figure, artists work so hard to get their music heard....they can say everything so much better than I can....so why should I work to describe my feelings when they're already in a song... *You make me weep and wanna die Just when you said we'd try Lovin', touchin', squeezin' each other When I'm alone all by myself You're out with someone else Lovin', touchin', squeezin' each other You're tearin' me apart Every day, every day You're tearin' me apart Oh what can I say? You're tearin' me apart It won't be long, yes till you're alone When your lover, oh, he hasn't come home Cause he's lovin' oo, he's touchin', He's squeezin' another He's tearin' you apart Every day, every day He's tearin' you apart Oh girl what can you say? Cause he's lovin', touchin' another Now it's your turn, girl to cry Na na na na na na Na na na na na Na na na na na na Na na na na na *My heart its not the first heart broken My eyes are not the first to cry I'm not the first to know There's just know getting over you Hopelessly Devoted To You But now there's no way to hide Since you've pushed my love aside I'm out of my head Hopelessly Devoted To You   *You don’t stay with the ones you can live with It’s the one you can’t live without It’s the one that’s got you torn up in pieces It’s the one you keep crying about Pride’s a tough pill to swallow, it’ll leave you lonely and cold and bitter What you need to do if she’s going to leave you Just pack up your things and go with her *I thought I saw a man brought to life. He was warm, he came around and he was dignified. He showed me what it was to cry. Well, you couldn't be that man I adored. You don't seem to know, seem to care what your heart is for. Well, I don't know him anymore. He's nothing well, he used to lie. The conversation has one dry. And that's what's going on, nothing's fine I'm torn. I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel Cold and I an shamed, lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed, into something real. I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn. You're a little late, I'm already torn. *When you kiss me like this I think you mean it like that Just one kiss and I don’t know where I’m at We’ll get lost on this dance floor Spinning around They’re all watching us now They think we’re falling in love They’ll never believe we’re just friends But when you kiss me like this I think you mean it like that If you do baby kiss me again   01 || Knock me off of my feet

[16 Oct 2005|03:59am] ugh... so miserable.... 02 || Knock me off of my feet

long time no see [13 Oct 2005|10:48pm] [ mood | blah ] Soo...... tons of wicked sweet things have happened in my life My boyfriend of 2 and a half years and I broke up. Stuff with us is messed up, hopefully things with us get better one way or another soon, I cant' stand us not being like this, he really is my best friend... I'm sick all the time. The doctors think there might be something wrong with my immune system, so I'm getting really sick really easily. Not there's something wrong with my respitory ssytem, not all the oxygen I breath is getting into my system, so I'm fainting and stuff, and I have a mild case of pnuemonia, and a common cold, and some type of stomach bug, so I'm like basically ready to die...lol They wanted to keep me in the hospital over night to monitor my breathing. I'm so glad I didn't have to go, my breathing has gotten a little better, my doctor still doesn't want my in school though, which sucks because I'm going to have a ton of work to make-up. SO I officially decided today that Alyson is the most amazing person ever. She knows how miserable everything has been for me lately, and on top of being sick and everything.....so she came over and brought me all sorts of stuff to make me feel better. A car freshener, a travel mug, lipgloss, candy and roses! Is she not the best friend anyone could ask for? Despite being on my death bed, my parents still let me take my lisese exam today...and I PASSED! hurray! well....thast it now I guess....see everyone soon hopefully! 012 || Knock me off of my feet

[21 Sep 2005|09:22pm] sweet... || Knock me off of my feet

[31 Aug 2005|09:54am] School starts tomorrow... I'm excited and I'm not I'm pumped to be a senior, but I don't want Summer to be over...especially not this Summer, its been awesome.. Get my senior pictures taken tonight...wicked nervous they're going to come out bad....   **CHECK YOURS AND COMPARE** A- English 12 B- Psychology / Sociology C-Compt. Apps./Study D-Analysis E-Spanish IV F- Adv. Physics G- Study/Anat. and Phys. Do you have any classes with me? 08 || Knock me off of my feet

[25 Aug 2005|09:28am] [ mood | content ] [ music | Fall Out Boy ] So I got my braces off last Friday....very exciting.... Got a pool put in, a big inground one....its cool, I love it. I was the first one to go swimming in it.... I leave for Maine today with my grandfather, brother and sister. I get back on Sunday. Its only for a few days, but it should still be fun. When I get back, I'm going back to school shopping with my grandmother....hurray! Then on the 31st I have to go into Worcester to get my senior pictures done...I'm kinda worried, bc alot of people said they hated the way theres came out.... Back to school soon...I'm pretty pumped.... 02 || Knock me off of my feet

I should update more than once a year [13 Aug 2005|01:22pm] [ mood | content ] Sooooo.... Last week Ashley came up, and I hung out with her from Wednesday till Friday night. Certainly NOT enough time, and it was emotional as always when she left....I miss her already! She's so much fun, beign with her just makes everything so much better.... We went to 6 Flags, and to the beach one day, and Alicia and I took Ash to the Barre rope swings....had a blast.....I miss her so much already! She left, that night there was a party at Andy's. We slept outside, I hate sleeping outside, I never actually sleep... Wednesday went to the concert, saw Ryan which was wicked sweet. Hung out with Andy, Jon and Craig most of the night.... Thursday Jon and I organized a BIG movie trip.....it was sweet....! We called Jacqui, abd Matt, and Sam, and Craig, and John and Chris and Amber...! We met up with Ryan and Stevo there after too. We went to see Sky High. It was a wicked cute movie! And it was even better being there with all my friends that I haven't seen in forever. Stopped off at Wal-mart on the way home, had an adventure there. Then dropped off Sammy and Jon and i went back to Chris's to chill with him and Amber. We went swimming, and hung out till like 11:30, then Jon and I went back to his house for the night. had to work Friday, it sucked. I was wicked irritable for...feminine reeasons, and then I hate the most MISERABLE day at work ever, and we were sooooo busy. I was in a terrible mood. Today I was suppose to get to hang out with Lucia, but looks like those plans fell thru. She might be coming to the beach with us Thursday hopefully....idc what we do at this point as long as I get to see her. In conclusion... 6 DAYS TILL MY BRACES COME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 02 || Knock me off of my feet

wahoooooo! [30 Jul 2005|10:48am] [ mood | ecstatic ] I was pretty pissed that the highlight of my Summer wasn't going to be here this year... I WAS WRONG!!!!!!!! Miss Ashley Howard will be joining all of us Massachusettsians on Monday August 1st! I am sooooo pumped! She's staying with me Wednesday, Thursday and Friday night! Saturday I have to bring her back to Worcester! :( !!! 3 days is NOT enough time to hang out with my Ashley...but its all I get, so I have to make the best of it! Friday we're going to the beach with her....anyone who wants to come let me know! I know most of the people Ashley used to hang out with either aren't in our school, or won't be reading my lj...but if anyone does want to see her....just let me know! I'm going to take her up to see Hezzy too....bc she still hasnt' seen the baby. I CAN'T EVEN TAKE THIS! I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANOTHER FEW DAYS....I WANT HER HERE NOW!!!!!!!!! Ugh....anyways... Today I'm going to a Red Sox game with my family and Jon. Jon's never been...and even though I don't really follow baseball that much,  the games are soooo much fun to go to! PLUS, he gets to sleep over afterwards....HURRAY! Yup, nothing else to really look forward to except for seeing Ash. I can't beleive its been a whole year since I've seen her....thats insane! For 2 1/2 years we never spent more than a day apart....now I only get to see her once a year..... 03 || Knock me off of my feet

hmm.. [26 Jul 2005|11:18am] [ mood | calm ] I never update anymore... I don't know where to start. There was a 6 Flags day, with Ari, Tia, Dylan, Jon, Jake, Justin and myself...that was a wicked sweet day. "I'm not tapping her, I'm spooning her!" "No Jon, you have to beat my vagina!"    lol, we had fun! Then there's been alot of hanging out at my Uncle's house. They moved to a house an a lake, and bought a boat, so we go up there and go tubing and stuff. I drove the boat last time I was there, that was cool... Lots of working going on....but thats ok, bc I need to save up money for when I'm not working as much in the Winter bc of cheerleading... Cheerleading....ahh....I can't awit. I can't beleive I'm counting down the days already...! This is mine and Qki's senior year...I'm soooo pumped! Speaking of which....I miss that girl an aweful lot.....! We were suppose to hang out when she got back from Cape Cod...but we basically work opposite schedules... I'M NEVER GOING TO GET TO SEE HER!!!!!  :' ( I get my braces of August 19th. I'm soooo excited! I go to get my senior pictures done August 30th. I can't wait.... I guess we might be getting a pool... well, we had one, but the liner broke...so instead of fixing the liner, my dad's going to rip it down and get an in-ground pool instead....pretty sweet... I get my lisense soon too. I already have my car. I have my last 2 driver'd ed appt's August 2nd and August 3rd. So, not to long after that I should be driving...that is, if I pass the first time...which I don't expect too.... I guess thats it..... If anyone who I've neglected so far this Summer wants to hang out....I don't work Thursdays or Sundays....just call or im me....I miss you all!       02 || Knock me off of my feet

Wow... [14 Jul 2005|11:24am] [ mood | no energy... ] Its been a busy Summer.... I've been hanging out alot with Alyson, and Jon and Andy. But now that our boys are on vacation, Alyson and I get just us time...which is wicked sweet cause I love her... Yesterday we went to the beach with Craig, Manda, Cucie, Hezzy, Kendal and Ange.... We had a blast....too bad we had to go home kinda early cuz of Kendal... I was suppose to hang out with Alyson and Ange last night too, but my mom was being kinda gay.... I'm officially home from taking care of the kids in Charlton untill the end of the month when I go back for a few days. They're so fucking cute....I'll post pictures later on... I have to work today, and tomorrow, and a double Saturday, and Sunday night....and Monday and Tuesday..... Hopefully all the working will make the time go by faster....I miss Jon...   || Knock me off of my feet

wow... [04 Jul 2005|12:36pm] [ mood | chipper ] its been forever... I can't really describe how my Summer has been so far...except by saying totally awesome! Alot of Jon, and Alyson and Any.... Not much of anyone else really tho.. I miss Q-ki.... Yesterday Alyson, Andy, Will, Jon and I went to the beach. It was BIG fun! Alyson and I jogged and heaved....! We had a blast...I got really sun-burnt though! We went to the common after, mostly cuz we had nothing else to do. There was a surprising amount of "seniors" there. (Can you beleive that, I still can't....we're seniors!) Alyson and I anointed...! lol. We hung out with JJ, who I haven't hung out with in forever....that was wicked sweet! We pig piled on Jon....who knew my boyfriend could hold up 5 people at once. It was impressive. Jon and I swing danced...and I beat up JJ. And thats all I have to say about that... I got my schedule, but I'm not going to bother posting it bc its all wrong and i have to call and change all my classes anyways.... Been working alot....wicked sweet. If anyone wants to come visit me, I work doulbes and Saturdays, and could use to see a friendly face on those days.... I got to Charlton tomorrow. I;m taking care of my friends kids for a week or two. Sucks bc I can't hang out with any of my friends, and I had to take a few days off work too. AND thats my last few days with Jon, bc he's going to Atlantic City with Andy Giza. I'm gonna miss him so much....but he'll have fun. And he never gets to go on vacation....so I'm glad he's going... KATIE-if you read this....did you get my birthday present??? I left it on your front step because you weren't there when I went to drop it off....! I hope you got it...! 04 || Knock me off of my feet

We're seniors bitches!!!!! [23 Jun 2005|05:59pm] [ mood | wonderful! ] OMG, the past 2 days have been the BEST EVER!!!! So yesterday was the last day of school. Got all my grades, I did very very well on everything except Spanish! O well....I shouldn't be in trouble, my mom knows how hard of a time I have in that class, I got a D on the Final tho...and a B- 3rd quarter....so I might be in a little trouble... After school, Ryan and I went to Q-ki's. We hung out there and waited for Nikki (Q-ki's Holyoke friend) to get there. Then Amanda, and Hezzy came, and finally Nikki showed up, after getting lost an aweful lot. We all hung out in Q's room for a little while. Then me and Ryan went to his house cuz he needed to get some stuff. I talked to his mom, she's sooo nice! Then we were off to Andy's. We got there, played volleyball, football, played in the pool, ate, made hot dogs and burgers, and just chilled...it was awesome. I'd try and name all the people that were there, but there was alot of people there, and I don't wanna forget someone and offend them...so nvm..lol Heather went and picked up Kendal later on, and I hung out with her for most of the day. We had fun, she's so adorable.... There was a tiny bit of drama, but there always is....but we all got over it real fast....so it was ok We started drinking at like 9. Made margaritas and stuff....WICKED AWESOME! Totally my idea, bc I HATE beer, as do most girls....so we kicked off the night with wicked sweet Summer Drinks! Our first drink was a toast to "Clas sof 2006 seniors bitches!" lmao! We hung out, played cards.....and eventually passed out! Woke up this morning. Turns out numerous people puked, but its ok, bc they all did it outside! YAY for people who can hold their liquor and DON'T puke...and.. YAY for people who do puke but don't do it in a place where I have to clean it up! So everyone got out of their pretty quick, and it was up to Alyson, Andy, Kayla, Jon and myself to do all the cleaning. We treated ourselves to breakfast first though down at Jenny's... So then it was time to leave... :( BUT I came home, and THERE WAS MY CAR.....just SITTING IN MY DRIVE WAY....so me and Jon went and we sat in it....lol! AND THEN!!!!! I came inside and my brother goes "We have another gift for you!" I guess now that i'll be driving I'm going to need a cell phone...so they got me one!!!! HURRAY!!!!! Ok...so I'm a little spoiled sometimes....but I LOVE it! lol 07 || Knock me off of my feet

tired.. [20 Jun 2005|02:19pm] [ mood | discontent ] Finals started... Geometry I did very well on English-pretty good History-ok Chamistry-amazing Spanish-ewww... All I have left is Algebra, and I should have no problem with that... I'm so glad school's almost out...I NEED Summer to be here Jon is at 6 Flags today, with Amanda and Q-ki... Once again he got to go without me.. Whatever I've been sleeping all day I don't know if its cuz I'm in a bad mood, or because I'm tired....but I don't care, I love sleeping Starting Wednesday I'm in Charlton for a week. Kinda sucks. My mom's best friend is having surgery, and she has 3 year old twins, so we have to go help her and take care of them. I miss Andy's party, which really sucks...but I could never say no to this woman, I've known her all my life, and she's never asked anything from us. I can't get my lisense on time now either... I want ice-cream... 03 || Knock me off of my feet

ummm...duh! [09 Jun 2005|06:13pm] Forgot the 2 most important things of all! I won Treasurer for class of 2006!! I want to thank everyone who voted for me, I won't let you down! lol AND....I have an anniversary coming up, and pretty big one....a 2 Year One! I'm pretty excited and I love Jon an aweful lot! 01 || Knock me off of my feet

And welcome back to the online world... [09 Jun 2005|06:01pm] [ mood | hurray! ] [ music | Boston Anthem... ] Wow man, its been a LONG time since my last update. Ok, so...recent events... *Went mini golfing with Alyson and Jon a few weekends ago, that was big fun! I won, I rock..lol. And we went in the batting cage, and ALyson and I did not so good...but then we played on the kids today, and Alyson and I had big fun on that...lmao! *Went camping with Alyson and Andy and Jon at Yogi. There was a bit of drama, but still awesome bc I was with 3 of the coolest people in the entire world. *Went to graduation too, it was very emotional, and very hot! *Skipped school to go to 6 Flags with like 15 people. It was wicked sweet. We spent like the entire day in the water park bc it was soooooo freacking hot! I got a sunburn... *Been working bunches, and hanging out with Jon bunches too.... :) Coming Attractions... *The weekend will be so sweet, bc I'm sleeping over Jon's house Friday, then going to hang out with Lucia all day Saturday and hanging out with her and sleeping over there...which is soooooo sweet cuz I miss her like tons and I'm wicked excited! *Ashley Howard is coming up from Virginia in a couple weeks, and I'm so excited I wanna piss myself bc I haven't seen her since LAST summer, and its been way to long, and she was my best friend and I miss her TONS! *I go to get my lisense soon, not sure whether thats good or bad, cuz I hate driving, but it will make things soooo much easier! *THE END OF SCHOOL AND THE STARTING OF SUMMER OFCOURSE!!!!!! I have so much energy, I dont kno what to do with myself right now...lol 06 || Knock me off of my feet

Ziploc Bags Ass Hole! [22 May 2005|09:12pm] [ mood | tired ] Star Wars All Day On Saturday!!!! It was amazing...the third movie took my breathe away. I was on the edge of my seat the whole time...it was very emotional for me tho. I knew he was going to go evil, everyone knew, but it still hit me real hard! When he got that evil look in his eyes, I cried so hard!!! It was so sad. Such a good movie though...I definitally DO think it was the best of the three....very emotional, very exciting! Slept over Jon's 2 nights in a row, Friday after work and Saturday after our Star Wars Event. And I got to spend the whole day with him today. That rocks pretty hard!!!! Work tomorrow, and Tuesday. But Tuesday should be big fun, Jon starts that night! I can't wait to train him. Working with him is going to be awesome. Oh god...I can't WAIT till school is over!! YAY SUMMER 05! 07 || Knock me off of my feet

[20 May 2005|10:35am] [ mood | crazy ] Funeral yesterday....weird, they're suppose to be such sad occasions. But my family is soooo big on that side, that the only time EVERYONE gets to see eachother is at funeral's or weddings. SO it was kind of cool too. I saw relatives I haven't seen since I was like 7. My family's so huge...its insane. After went to my sisters game, they lost against Prouty. I got stung by a bee. Pilche was there to help me thru that horrific experience. Then home, then out to eat with my grandfather. Then to my cousin's concert. She's got the most beautiful voice, and she's so small. It was cool. Didn't really do anything the rest of the night....boring day. Now back to school today, and then to work...blah... STAR WARS TOMORROW OMG I COULD NOT BE MORE EXCITED I WANT TO CRY I'M THAT HAPPY I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR SO LONG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! (I'm so excited I didn't even use punctuation! lol) Anyways....thats it... 02 || Knock me off of my feet

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